Resignation

June 17, 2009 on 3:03 am | In Late-night Thoughts | 5 Comments

I resign. I resign from the waiting and the hoping, the endless up-down oscillation that is always underlying my life, bringing me up and casting me down on a whim. I resign from it.

I reject. I reject the stereotyping, the fact that talking becomes Something, the way that it is impossible to hold a normal conversation with someone other than those you know without some people being stupid. I reject it.

I disregard. I disregard the adrenaline, the pitter-patter of a pulse, the silent signs that wait in the depths of your mind to entrap you, to give you ideas and airs and graces which reality shreds into pieces. I disregard them.

I accept. I accept that things do not work out always, and that there will be other things in other times despite the ever-extending wait. I accept patience.

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I wish.

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  1. :-(

    Comment by Lucy — June 17, 2009 #

  2. Good things come to those who wait…

    Comment by Flix — June 17, 2009 #

  3. We should talk.

    Comment by Claire — June 17, 2009 #

  4. It gets better. And then it gets worse. But then it’s OK. Hang on in there – and hope you can stick to these resolutions but not too much.

    Comment by Jenny — June 17, 2009 #

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